smile, even if it's going to be a fake one.
because things will get better somehow.
because the sun still shines for you.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
^ by oxolife isnt bad, and my hair's growing pretty well. haha.
but other than that, i think people are getting hypocritical.
i just feel it. and im hating it.
cos you never know when you will get stabbed...
even between friends, thereaint much genuine trust nor respect...
[and im feeling hypocritical for posting this paragraph]
the syndrome is back.
whenever exams approach, i would indulge myself in food.
ate 3 bowls of rice earlier on and poof, i look pregnant.
haha.
hate it, but what can i do. :(
each and every one of us are taking turns... to break down.
as a 过来人, i think im in the perfect position to say...
if it's gonna be like that, let it be that.
and no, im not asking you all to retain duh!
but i totally understand the feeling.
i must say... retaining doesnt give you a good taste of life.
but at least, i know, i have grown stronger mentally.
and sometimes, things wont end up as bad as you think...
remembering how much i cried last year for retaining and making my parents sad,
i know i just have to live strong, cos life goes on... :)
seeing people getting stressed up and say that they will retain makes me feel that...
you people are being sorry for me, and discriminating me.
its just a feeling, i know you people dont mean it... :)
hmm, but i dont like it, seriously.
i dont like people sympathizing me.
but then when i think about how i was last year, i understood, so i didnt take any of those stupid assumptions to heart.
its okay to cry, and be worried.
even now, i am worried for my promos too.
cos i dont have anymore chances in NYJC...
[even mingting and grace say that my smile isnt genuine anymore... :(]
then again, thinking that i have come this far, if im destined to flunk yet again, 我也就认了.
just think positive and give it a go bah.
加油 0934 <3
all right, back to econs.
i just have to satisfy my material wants right after promos. :D
