i really really should start loving the body i have been living with for the past seventeen years. and not always think of slicing my fats off whenever i see them protruding... uh huh. i think i really should, although i think that i have to lose a good ten kilo to be healthy. what a dilemma.

i feel so BOREDDDDD.

SUPERBAND is back. i support 櫻[INK], 蒲公英[DANDELION], and 杂叭琅~! okay lah, i dont really know where their standards are yet, but then they definitely caught my attention. especially 杂叭琅... like how i got attracted to 迷路兵[MILU BING] two years ago...

well well, im so dead bored at home. i dont quite like the idea of mugging now. haha. maybe start a little at a time bah. starting from tomorrow, i promise.

im waiting for animal planet, arts central. quick quick quick... im dying from boredom. and whenever i get bored, i think of food... grah.

i miss you darling! :]

sometimes, i wonder why im born this way... im not street smart, im not good looking, im not skinny, im not clever, im not spontaneous, im not confident, im not talented blah blah~ sigh.

have been working in cocoa trees these few days. my legs are aching. but at least... its bearable... i have to start on my revision soon!

saturday! went for biz club in the morning and then went to the class committee training with marjy, aaron, khaiyew and dansu. oh my god! its so fun fun FUN~
together with 0826 and 0834... thus the more fun fun FUN. ;]

our facilitator was someone called EVA. when we were at our very last activity, which was the throwing of hoops, she kept asking me to focus (she said that to everyone though, but i guess i received the greatest impact). initially, my hoops were like flying everywhere. but after she asked me to focus and not let my teammates down, i started throwing like a marksman. the contrast was like... so BIGGGG. i was kind of shocked myself. guess i found out the technique in throwing the hoops fast enough...

after the training, EVA said she wanted to talk to me. and yup. we talked. she asked me if there's anything in life thats just like the situation(throwing of the hoops). and yah. THERE IS....

COMPUTING.
there's some linkage with these two things in fact. but im kind of loss of words now. soso, dont want to elaborate much... ...

and so... we talked about it... and gradually, i cried. she was so encouraging. she comforted me, and i couldnt control my tears... im glad i let it all out, to someone im not even close with. im just so glad. :]

although its just a simple activity, but then... i guess my teammates all have learnt alot from it. and yah, i miss that day kind of much...

after the training jiu went to eat with my class comm at plaza sing.

the end. :]

MILU BING's events are piling up. and look at me. doubt i will see them during this hols. again.

today's GP paper was... okok lah. "what extent is hard work important for success." i briefly read through a raffles student's essay on the same topic the night before. i should have memorised the whole essay! argh~

went out with valerie to E!HUB just now in the evening. she did stupid things again. hahaha!

its holidays! first week would be working at cocoa trees. i need more pocket money! thenthen... jiu have to start mugging for mid years le. it is so damn crucial. i doubt i have the time to study and score promos. so yah. have to excel in mid years so as to pull me up at the end of this year.

im addicted to baked almonds~

andand, i miss you darling...

i love superman~ :]

everyday is as warm as today... so disgusting. damn it, global warming! grah~ im like... always perspiring. hurh.

today khai yew so man, he scolded some guy in school [although i didnt see him do it...] HAHA. i see that guy's retarded face i want to smack it hard. disgusting people~ how dare he bully my friend~!

" ~!)^@#($~!#&*!@*)_&(#@%............"

im so so so upset with my computing practical. i wasted a few hours in school just to do practical 5, questions 7 and 9 eh. i clarified so many things with matthew... and now, i lost my answers... i remembered vividly that i attached it to my email and sent it back to myself de... BUT THEN, what the hell. i opened the mail and see no attachments inside. damn it. i almost strangled myself. and now, i have to redo them. school's comp doesnt have any records of my file. my hard work... *cries*

felt better after pe... ;]

friday GP mid year examination! jiayou people! :]

i want to learn how to play canon so so soooooo badly~

OH MY GOODNESS. I FORGOT YISIEW'S BIRTHDAY!

damn it. its like... so damn long ago already.

YISIEW! IF YOU ARE SEEING THIS... IM REALLY REALLY SORRY!

stab me... what kind of a friend am i, i wonder... damn it. i should be shot.

but still...

HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEEN!

im really so sorry yi siew!

today... was feeling really sick this morning. couldnt even climb out of bed. i felt so heavy... i kind of predicted this would happen last night, after my PW meeting. had a runny nose, and sorethroat. and now im having a fever. *cries*

10th may! went to NYJC band and guzheng concert. the overall performance was good. but the best part was the SHAN HU HAI... :]

no one knows how much i hate computing...
no one knows how much i feel like stangling myself every monday night...

i seriously hate computing lah. its just so not my cup of tea. why the hell did i take it, WHY?! and its my H2 subject... DAMN IT. im plain stupid. risked my promos and Alevels for a subject so foreign to me. damn me...

im feeling so demoralised. i have got this feeling i cant even pass my promos. i seriously dont want to hang in the mid air you know...

i cant even do a practical question correctly on my own. worse still, cos of computing i dont have time for my maths, econs, and chem. one practical question already took me a pathetically long day to solve it.

DAMN ME.

I AM SO DAMN BLOODY STRESS.

I HATE MYSELF.
I HATE MONDAYS.
I HATE COMPUTING.

yesterday was the last day for mr shane koh and mr peh. *cries*

this is KAO on the left, and our econs teacher MR PEH on the right.
put their names together... and they will form KAO PEH.
haha, cool right!? tricia told me so and i find it really funny. LOL.


and this is our dearest GP teacher, MR shane koh. he left us already. *cries*



and this is the shirt we all drew our names on for the two teachers... didnt manage to take the whole shirt though. haha.


these candids are taken during NYJC's sports carnival. we were playing freesbie. and the one on the floor was me. i got bumped by this 0829 guy during the game. HAHA. i forgot about this incident until i got this picture taken by mr shane koh... it was an enjoyable game really! ;]



these pictures seems to be so so so long ago. taken by our dearest MR shane koh, when he helped us take our mugshots...





twenty four hours a day is jsut so not enough. i need more time~

andand, my brain is failing me. i cant even seem to remember the slightest thing. for example. i forgot i have tuition with mam yesterday! damn damn. i felt so sorry. i need a remedy.

TODAY TODAY TODAY! marks the 5th month anniversary for galvin and me. :]

played basketball today! with junjie, andy, chunkit, jiahui, and shuhui, with another three more girls. wooh~ so fun! :]

thenthen, after that ate tauhuey again! with... zhipeng, nicholas, aaron, andy, matthew, and shuhui! im feeling bloated fat now... *cries* im going on a diet soon. i simply eat too much nowadays.

shane koh's leaving us already... my favourite teacher in nanyang eh... *sigh* after him, there will be a female teacher taking over temporarily. andand, it seems like only the guys in our class will BENEFIT... the girls in the class no longer have anything to "admire" le... and wth, why do we get all the temporary teachers hurh? does that do us any good?

i think i pissed bernard wong off today during computing... butbut, i really dont understand "array" what! before i left he still asked me to study harder... wah biang eh. i got study de lor, but does he know, does he know?! i really cannot understand computer language what... qi si wo le. grah~

oh yah, and i didnt talk about last sunday! went to kathy mam's house for tuition, then she gave me a ride to bedok interchange... LOL. it was a... erhm... EXCITING ride. i want it again. LOL! thenthen, took bus to kao's hostel. they told me to alight two stops after newton mrt... and yes, i saw mrt and alighted two stops after that. but i got lost. really lost... i was late already eh... and i got lost some more... sigh~ took the bus back, and that was when i found out the mrt which i passed was Little India's mrt station. =.= i must admit, my sense of direction is... nowhere. haha.

these are photos taken by lanlan after my napfa, before and during my PW meeting with kao, nicholas, and qianying! and yah. i think i really looked fat... :[


this was taken yesterday, after PW lesson with ah chee...
by the way, tricia's blog is entertaining!
cos of andy and lanlan!
LOL!


THE ENDDDDD~! :]

to my superman: im missing you every minute, every second... :]

^ my dp~ :]

today! my 2.4km... okok lah. better than i thought. my ankle didnt hurt one bit! after running, shuhui was seriously feeling nauseous... and yes, she vomited. poor girl.

thenthen during break, walked to the tauhuey shop with tricia and andy. we ate that HK chicken pie. andy and me 'da pao-ed' tauhuey back to school. i think im really addicted to it. i dont know why. LOL. i still want more tauhuey~

today is monday, monday, MONDAY! gonna chiong computing prac again. im so sick of it.

this week gonna b damn heavy. maths lecture test, and econs essay lecture test. damn it. i havent even started. im worried. :[

saw jinqi at whitesands this afternoon! havent seen her for months, and months... we're all grown ups now... :]

COMPUTING~!

i feel so dumb-ed. sprained my ankle on at my very first station, shuttle run, this morning, during napfa. whats more, my whole body's aching from the run with valerie on labours' day(although i enjoyed mysself real lot that day). shuck shuck. luckily i passed all the other 4 napfa items. 2 more points to get gold! and that 2 points will come from my 2.4km. and gosh~ how am i going to run with a swollen ankle on monday hurh?!

its so so so so swollen now... :[

after napfa, went to eat tauhuey at serangoon's mac with shuhui, qianying, jiahui, tricia, marjorie, chunkit, kao, andy, and aaron. thenthen, after that went back to school to do PW with kao and qianying first, while lanlan tagged with us and nicholas late. today was quite productive... :]

evening, went to vivo with galvin... :] and now... im so so so tired. tuition and PW meeting again tomorrow to finish off our first draft of GPP. jiayou kao, nicholas, qianying, and me~ :]

yesterday's yesterday, on my way home on bus 81, i witnessed violence being acted on a primary school student. he looked like a primary3 to me...
you know what, you know what...?!
this particular violent boy walked over to this harmless boy who sat infront of me. he used his long handphone strap to hit him. i thought they were playing, so i just... you know, look around.
just when i turned back to look at them, that poor boy caught hold of his handphone strap so as to stop that violent boy from coninuing to hit him. andand... my goodness. guess what happened next...
that violent boy grabbed his handphone and hit it hard on that poor little boy's forehead. the sound was like... "THUMPPP!!"
i was so stunned, and i didnt know how to react... i simply just shouted:"HEY!" and stared back hard at that stupid, violent, crazy boy. didnt know if he got afraid or anything, but he walked back to his seat.
another boy, seemingly to be one of their friends warned that violent boy that its not funny to hit people. then you know what that aggressive boy replied?
he said: "tomorrow i put bomb into your bag i tell you!" what the heck. =.=

my goodness. whats this world turning into? they are just primary students! and they are turning so violent and inhumane... eww. what a shock.

and yesterday's morning! i accidentally hit this primary school boy's spectacles off his face. and his specs FLEW... ... HAHA.
i was on bus, on my way to school. so many passengers on board you know? and everyone was staring at me... my goodness. i almost tore my face off. it was so damn bloody EMBARRASSING! i will never be able to forget this incident...

*cries*

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