ft island's new japanese single! :)

and im feeling lazy already.
but im finishing my revision for chemistry soon.
real soon.
hwaiting!

and im loving MBC's Flower Boys Generation.
Episode16 really made me laugh so hard.
that 1hour break was worth it.

and im starting to think if karma hates me...

life isnt bad, and my hair's growing pretty well. haha.

but other than that, i think people are getting hypocritical.
i just feel it. and im hating it.
cos you never know when you will get stabbed...
even between friends, thereaint much genuine trust nor respect...
[and im feeling hypocritical for posting this paragraph]

the syndrome is back.
whenever exams approach, i would indulge myself in food.
ate 3 bowls of rice earlier on and poof, i look pregnant.
haha.
hate it, but what can i do. :(

each and every one of us are taking turns... to break down.
as a 过来人, i think im in the perfect position to say...
if it's gonna be like that, let it be that.
and no, im not asking you all to retain duh!
but i totally understand the feeling.
i must say... retaining doesnt give you a good taste of life.
but at least, i know, i have grown stronger mentally.
and sometimes, things wont end up as bad as you think...
remembering how much i cried last year for retaining and making my parents sad,
i know i just have to live strong, cos life goes on... :)

seeing people getting stressed up and say that they will retain makes me feel that...
you people are being sorry for me, and discriminating me.
its just a feeling, i know you people dont mean it... :)
hmm, but i dont like it, seriously.
i dont like people sympathizing me.
but then when i think about how i was last year, i understood, so i didnt take any of those stupid assumptions to heart.
its okay to cry, and be worried.
even now, i am worried for my promos too.
cos i dont have anymore chances in NYJC...
[even mingting and grace say that my smile isnt genuine anymore... :(]

then again, thinking that i have come this far, if im destined to flunk yet again, 我也就认了.
just think positive and give it a go bah.
加油 0934 <3

all right, back to econs.
i just have to satisfy my material wants right after promos. :D

/edited


am finally done with history notes.
:)

shall start on past years' math promo papers soon.

21days to freedom + lots of videos on youtube + shopping + kbox + good food + sleep + happiness.

yesterday, i made an amazing discovery...
i found out that for the past few months, i have mistaken MSG for sugar.
and i have been adding MSG into my coffee.
*rolls eyes*
no wonder my coffee always tasted weird.
brr.

i wanna get myself a yellow outfit.
soon, soon....

im getting real fat.
dawn, return me my stomach.
:(

im gonna learn a new korean vocab every day!
ah, i wanna go korea...
dawnnnnnnn...
:(

hot ddeu geo ddeu geo hot, ddeu geo ddeu geo hot~~

thanks to dawn and her dad,
i finally grab hold of DBSK's MIROTIC album,
and FT ISLAND's CROSS AND CHANGE album.
thanks! :)

and now dawn is going gaga over DBSK.
i swear now it isnt my fault.
LOL! i only drugged her with FT Island.
(since she was previously an extreme anti-DBSK)

anyway, i feel guilty.
havent touched on my revision today yesterday.
had dinner-out with family and i just had to slack my night through.
it had been an enjoyable night though...

it is more of a motivation now,
rather than a distraction...

oh, i cut my hair.
its shorter and more...
voluminous.
extremely not used to it.

and i should get to bed.
cos i have to wake up at 6am for morning jog with my family.
that was pretty amazing,
considering that my family members are all lazy-bums.
and i bet my parents think that i wont be able to wake up.
hahahaa.

international history chiong-ing starts after my jog.
hwaiting.

sometimes, i just cant help but think that way...
i shouldnt demoralise myself but still...

oh my goodness, CTRL + F5 works wonders.
it cured my blogger and facebook and neopets.
haha.
it apparently force reloads everything back to normal.
thanks to dawn!
:)

school hours these few days have been really short.
especially today, cos mr kellet is on mc.
and ooh, i got dismissed at 12pm.
and wth, it took me the whole afternoon to finish my kinetics tutorial.

off to compile my GP stuffs.
byebye!

went to dawn's house after tutorial on thursday to study.
and i introduced FT Island to her and... ahem.
she fell in love with them! :D

can you imagine dawn as a fangirl saying:

Omgggggggggggggggggg I can't believe I'm saying this!
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG he's seriously damn handsome! :( :( :(
O.M.G.

hahaha. stunned right.
:)

butbut,
be it you are happy knowing FT Island or not,
i would like to apologise to you dawn.
sorry dawn.
i was pretty scared that it might become a distraction to you,
especially at this point of time when...
19days later we will be having our first promo paper.
i hope it didnt distract you as much as it did to me.
considering that i have been rolling my chair to and fro around my room for the whole day when im studying and was craving to watch their videos on youtube. LOL.
hmm. yah. haha...

BUT OH MAN,
WE SHARE GREAT TASTE DAWNY! :)
and im so happy and excited to share everything i know, i feel, and i think with you.
are you touched? ♥♥♥
on msn: "sorry XXXX, SEUNGHYUN WON! <3"

all right.
i confess i have not touched on econs.
was talking to kathy mam this afternoon on msn when i blurted out my inner feelingshatred towards econs.
my mood changed almost in an instant when this topic was discussed,
and im sorry.
cos i think i might have scared her, i dont know.
hahaha.

im still working for promos,
although i think time is running out like vrooooooooooom.
plus i need some teeny weeny study breaks on youtube to have a good laugh/smile which turned into like 30 to 60mins.
pffft.

leekeat wants to blog so much but blogger is failing again.
pffft.

Oneu ri ji na go
naeil ddo nun ddeu myun
Ee mo deun kae hyeo nshi ri anin kkum igil barae oh
Mo deun kae hyeon shil bo da deo
Rieol haet deon kkumi yeot gil nanun barae neol barae
Ajik do neo reul won hae

all right, am not going to burn midnight oil tonight.
加油 kay everyone!
:)

omg, im sorry but Mnet Scandal is damn stupid. :(

another group of EXTREMELY pretty boys from korea, F.T. ISLAND♥!
though DBSK are obviously still better,
but come on, DBSK are men,
FT Island are boys.
anyway anyhow,
FT Island still rocks my socks kay!

FT ISLAND & DBSK FTW!

pardon me, its 4+am and i was doing math homework before this...



homework is just so redundant at this point of time.
i need time to compile notes.
sigh.

you might not understand. no one understands, i swear.
but your words instantly turned into a pail of icy cold water that was being poured over me.
after every tests,
you never fail to come to me and say that you are disappointed.
and you never fail to make me cry whenever i reflect at night.

its not like i have not put in any effort.
it just does not reflect in my grades,
what can i do...
you just do not have anything else to say other than being disappointed in me.

i still adore you.
its just that...
sometimes i need an encouragement too, you know?

do you know that i was always hoping to hear a word of encouragement from you...
you seem to be encouraging everyone,
all except me.

i will miss those little moments when we bump into one other in school...
til then 0830! ♥♥♥

chemistry lecture test tomorrow.
im really sorry that i have procrastinated.
did not touch much on vectors either.
what have i been doing...
zzz.

uh huh, i remember now.
watching videos on the Animal Planet's official website!

http://animal.discovery.com/videos/

i was so fascinated by them.
thumbs up!

my hair is too long,
and i think im balding.
LOL, so i need a hair cut.
soon i hope...

Mrs choo called and asked about me.
told her that i have retained and she said that its all right,
cos im still young.
and that i will definitely perform better.
aww. :)
for you, i will!
i miss her accusing me for stealing her chocolate chips back then in the FandN room.

im tired, and hungry.
and is praying hard for a clear mind tomorrow so that i can excel in my chem test.

Happy Teachers' Day!

non naui norae~

tan leekeat.
ellekay.
elle_kay0114@hotmail.com

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