smile, even if it's going to be a fake one.
because things will get better somehow.
because the sun still shines for you.
Sunday, April 30, 2006
okayys. to everyone who might be concern of this. or maybe just want to know what's happening... and to the her, if you want to get a better understanding of you know what. we (rachel, val c, me) have talked to her last night. with khai as our mediator. we did not talk much in the conference, but we just want to let her know why she is wrong. she might be defending herself, she might be giving excuses... i dont know. i dont wish to be in a nasty situation suspecting that she is lying or something.
yes i hate her. but it only started this year. sec one, higher mother tongue. dont know her well. just know there was such a girl called XXXX XXX. yupps. then sec two. we were in the same class. get to know her more. we started to get along. she was one nice girl whom i can confide with. a good girl indeed. everything was well. until this year, maybe around february. she was starting to get on my nerves. i do not wish to ruin her here by saying out what she had done. in fact, its nothing serious. but, in my 'group' here, we do not like this. everyone, get what i mean?! it's just simply that our 'group' cannot stand her being .... .... ya larhhs. hope you guys get the idea.
on friday, we(rachel, val c, khai, me) had been wasting our precious time, talking wtih each other. we discussed about everything. the consequences... everything. if we confront her, will she break down. isnt that going to be too harsh for her to take it? why force each other to difficult ends? get what i mean? then if we just leave her alone, and let the friendship turn bland, she will slowly know other friends, and who knows, one day she will leave us. isnt that more appropriate. no one will get hurt, no one will be unhappy. BUT, the past few months, me, val c, rachel had really tried our best by doing so. i do not dare look at her. i dont really talk to her much if you have eyes to see, and ears to hear. seriously, i dont talk to her much as compared to last year. but sometimes i think i got too soft. i worked with her for cme project, i worked with her in the physics lab, i work with her for home econs, i wait for her every morning outside school, i accompany her for every recess, WHAT ELSE DOES SHE WANTS MORE??!!! i want to leave her, but... HOW? you guys get the idea please? i tried to be nice to her. but i simply cant stand her... ...
now that everything has leaked out. and she doesnt get the vivid idea. i really want to sit down, with everyone's presence, and talk with her. we promise we did say nicely and calmly. but she doesnt really want to do so! she is afraid of being pressurised with everyone around. i know... but if she doesnt want to cooperate, what can we do? last time WE are the victims. and now HER turn to be the victim... last night, she finally agreed to meet on tue. okayys. thats great. hope that it will be fine after that...
last night, after saying goodnite to khai, val c and rachel... khai rang me up again. she said she called her again. telling her that she doesnt want to lose the friendship. i guess i can do it... i will not break the friendship. but i dont think our friendship will turn its way back, to the past. i am sorry. it will definitely not be like last time. but i will just be a FRIEND of hers. its the maximum i can do. i am sorry.
Friday, April 28, 2006
okayys. today is quite a bizzarre day for me. everything seems to happen so quickly. then today, we did not talk much to each other. and during higher mother tongue, i diiao-ed her, by giving her my most irritated looks. i do not want to say the details here. but i wish she knows the reason why i diiao-ed her.after higher mother tongue, me, val c, rachel, khai stayed back to study together. but as everyone had predicted, we did not study much. instead, we kept chit chatting, wasting our precious time.
we talked about her. what we feel about her. and what we are going to do to her. well. to me, i am still in a confusion state. i do not know who is she to me. sometimes i treat her like a foe, sometimes like a clown, sometimes as just a classmate. i do not know what she wants from me, and neither do i know what i want from her. to state the fact, i am just being bias.
should i confront her? and tell her how i feel about her. with the help of mediators... ( does it make you think of the cme's video? ) tell her my displeasure towards her instead of backstabbing her, which was what khai said. or really just ignore her, until she really found her new friends and let our friendship go bland? and then by that time, she will leave me alone... good idea? should i do it? but i have tried this method before, and it did not last long. i was once again agitated by her attitude.
so what should i do? i dont dare to confront her anyway. not because i am scared of her, just that i do not want things to be difficult for everyone. including val c and rachel. or should i just make it clear and tell her off whenever she did something not pleasing?
i know that nobody is perfect is perfect. and neither am i a perfect person. so why backstab her? that was an unsolvable question. khai and rachel said that the matter lies on my mentality. i dont know... but i guess that they had a point...
Thursday, April 27, 2006
okayys. and i huess now she already knew that i dislike her. finally. after so long. she finally knows that i am backstabbing her like mad dog. i some sort of felt relief. at least i do not have to put up a fake front in front of her anymore in the future. i just have to do what i want.to her: so now that you know, and that you have read my blog, i think you know why i dislike you. but you do not have to change... i do not know what to say. but just a few more words. mind yourself. you can do what you like. but please really try your very best to mind what you are doing.
today. sunny. feeling ok. haiis. not an exciting day today. but instead, a hilarious one. stayed back after school with val c and khai. went to the library to study. khai really made val c and me laugh til jaw drop. this racist just rocks man. then later nicholas chairman and ceputra came in. then when khai knew that he was ceputra, she went: "huhh! i thought ceputra girl seii..." hahas. really funny. my hands went weak and could not even hold my pen.
then at 4pm, library closed. so we went to hai cafe to continue with our revision of a maths. i didnt expect myself to be that clever to solve quite a number of questions on factor and remainder theorem. hahas! but not satisfied at all. i can do better!
now reached home. waiting for cher eng to finishing her part of being my partner for our cme project. after she had finish rephrasing the sentences, i will have to print them out.
but for now, i am going to eat. hahas.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
now cumm online do project... the project on cme, life long learning! then at the mean time post an entry. these few days studied alot. no. maybe not alot, but at least i have tried to do alot... hahaas.my composition on REGRET. yeahhs. i got 21/30. i have never ever get such marks for my composition before. and i am really happy this time. i really had put in alot of effort. read books on people losing their lives, and read on how they die. lolls.
and my history. this structured essay question on china. i got 8/13! hahs. not well enough. alot others got ten for it, which i think i can do it too. i will jiia you.
as for maths. still not bad. attending tuition with fiona at easternserve. a good teacher with really lame jokes. hahas. as our mid year is around the corner, he bring forward quite a few lessons. on monday(24 april) and tuesday (25april) i have got tuition with me. and this saturday there will be another on. then next monday(the real fixed time for my a maths class) come again. really exhausted. but, oh well, i just want to score better this time round.
i have got a wisdom tooth! hahas. growing a wisdom tooth now. what a 'good' timing. exams is next week, and my gums are aching! the pain really is killing me. i cannot chew on food. i must chew slowly, in order not to hurt my gums. it hurts more at night, when i am ready for bed. it will ache like mad. last night i could not stand it. i roll back and forth on my bed, trying to kill the pain but to no avail. then tears start flowing. and i complained to my mummy. then mummy gave me panadol, to ease the pain. just nice, i was having a headache, the panadol really helped me alot.
then today. she tried copying me and clara again. cannot stand her. but i see the way she does it... very funny. no wonder she is my clown. haahaas!
Sunday, April 23, 2006
mid year... mid year... mid year....!!! lolls. mid year coming. need to start revision. so i will not be online that often... maybe three days once...
Saturday, April 22, 2006
haiis. just returned home. after tuition in the morning, i went to whitesands with fiona to do homework. sat down at food court. and saw so many haisians. for that two hours, i had done only 2 elementary maths questions. dont have the study mood. but i am really anxious about mid year. one more week. and it's doom's day. i am really petrified. but on the other hand, i want to let nature takes its course. that is not to force myself too hard.at food court i also saw shuiman and her mum. her mum is young and pretty. lolls. really. then her mum went out, and shuiman didnt want to follow... thus she called chai sia up and they went cycling. lolls. meanwhile she kept saying what 'neh neh'... so damn bloody gross. hahas. cant stand her.
as i really got no mood to study, and to the fact that i only had four dollars in my wallet, we decided to go library.
now that i have reached home... i feel relaxed. lolls. because my daddy is back! hahas. from japan. i miss him so much.
jo's gonna be back soon too.... yeah....
Thursday, April 20, 2006
a horrible day today. everything does not seems to be smooth. early in the morning, almost got caught by that scary NG. then during home econs, mrs choo prepared my ingredients for the practical when it was cher eng who would be taking the test. i was shocked. our ingrdients had slight difference. and i want mine to be unique...and the worse part was yet to come. while cher was folding her mixture, she called me to get her the chocolate chips. then i went. i asked the lady inside the room where to get the chocolate chips, and she pointed to the table. then i took it. not til one second, choo lay choo rushed to me and snatched the chocolate chips away. "you are not suppose to take the chocolate chips! these are not for you. who ask you to come? why are you here? why are you STEALING my chocolate chips? what are you up to? i am going to tell miss chua. you STOLE my things!" she said with her fingers keep pointing at me. i was fed up. i replied,"i am not stealing okay... steal yours for what." then she came to my table... and threatened cher. say that she would tell miss chua, and even give us PC. wth. i was sleeping throughout. after i have finished my workbook. then cher did not hear that no one will be getting the chocolate chips. then she called me to help her get them... i did not hear mrs choo said that too... i was so innocent... haiis.
i really hated mrs choo's naggings, and that she did nt hear my explanation. if not, i believe, she will be a great teacher...
later on... chua was like become moody. then she some sort of throw tantrums. make me also not happy. then during lunch break i seek revenge. i tried to shoot back her words like what she had done to me... i was really angry then. but was okay after that.
then guides. we stayed back to pack up the room and the store at basement. qinghui was not feeling well. i understand that. but why is she some sort of avoiding me. she not going for guides never mind what. i did not blame her for that. but why is she giving me that kind of 'attitude'... i detest that. i asked if she is ok, she said she is fine and wanted to go home. then go home lorhs! why sat there with the others chit chat when i when i was dirtying myself with all the dust and rust? i see her kept laughing and chit chatting. i was unhappy. really. i am not afraid to say so. she not feeling well... then go home larhs. why look so reluctant to talk to me when i am concerning her all the while, and... ... i do not want to say anymore.
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
i have thought it all over. i dont think i want to treat her as a foe anymore. i am just treating her as a clown. hahass. everytime after school when i think about her, i will laugh. lolls. and morning when i see her. oh my god. firstly, i will look at her face... then to her blouse... then to her skirt... then her shoes... which reminded me of 14 march... she brightens up my day. i love her now.hahas. not trying to be sarcastic. just trying to comfort myself. since hating her is not going to benefit anyone... hahas. thats why. she is now my 'kai xing guo'. she makes me laugh. and even makes me feel like killing myself. i love you!!!
oh yarhs. and khai. i love you too. your "you pregnant arh?" really makes me happy. hahas!!!
Monday, April 17, 2006
lost again. should i surrender? before i die with my heart really shattered...? i lost to her for chemistry. again. i hate it. and the summary for mount roraima. stupid idiot bloody bitchy arshole. ggrr. sorry. i really need to vent my anger.i dont know if i still want to compete with her. initially i thought it will be easy if i work triple times harder than her. but god doesnt seems to support me. i lost to her again and again and again. my hopes diminished into the thin air whenever she scored higher than me. and as i build my hopes slowly, with all my efforts, god stole them away. it had happened hundreds of times. what is this... i had really put in alot of effort. what do you (god) want exactly from me?! you really want to see my blood drip...? you want to see my eyes burst as tears had already swelled up my eyes...?
she had been talking nonsence all day long. i see her, i want to puke. what attitude is she giving me. acting innocent when people hate to see her bloody irritating face. i guess she already knows about this. but she doesnt want to face it... i dont know how to deal with her. just praying everyday that the avian flu can come quickly, so that there will not be any schooling...
i do not wish to talk about her anymore. you may say that i am jealous or envy or whatever you think, but let me tell you. I AM NOT. i am just irritated by whatever she had done. her acting sucks. still wanted to act inocent infront of us when we already knew the whole truth.
i will not pay anymore attention to her. i dont want her to distract my mind and make me lose confidence. unless she really did something i really hate... if not i will not talk about her anymore in my blog.
i pray... to make her disappear from my life... forever...
Sunday, April 16, 2006
just now at this fashion shopping. then received val's message calling me to come online. hahas. but i was shopping half way with my mummy. so... sorry val.saw shuhui tong2 xue2 at this fashion too. hahas. she so pretty.
tomorrow is monday. another stupid school day. i detest school now. i cannot imagine how much i loved school last time. last time i craved for school. i love my friends, i love my work, i love guides. but now. everything changed. maybe thats because i am growing up. and thats what a person must go through. you get tired of the things around you, and you craved for something new and special. i loathe homework. i loathe studying. i am getting sick of sitting by my table everyday to study. i will start vandalising my textbooks, my erasers, my calculator, my hands, and even my legs. all filled with vulgar language. i love vandalising too much. and maybe thats why my mummy and daddy changed my wooden study table to a tempered glass study table. its stronger. and inks will be easier to get rid on glass than on wood. hahas. and guides. i feel lethargic whenever i was informed to attend guides meetings, or trainings. i feel like pon-ing. but i do not have the courage to do so. i am a coward. sometimes i feel it that way. i hate it!
now chatting with joseph on msn. he is so caring. hahas. telling me all the stuffs i want to hear. and consoling me like my mummy. lolls. thank you jo. hope you have a pleasant flight this friday. dont know how will i live without you conforting me. lolls. buy something for me yerhh? bon voyage!
besides jo... my daddy going overseas to work again. he had just returned from that dont know where a few weeks back. and next tuesday he will be leaving for japan again. and he will return next saturday. what the heck. i am a daddy's girl. no daddy, how am i going to strive through... i love you daddy.
Saturday, April 15, 2006
finally reached home after the long day of guides. went to chung cheng high main this morning. i was almost late as i woke up at 6.35am when i was informed to reach school at 7am. but i was lucky, as i did not have a bad hair day, so i tied my hair quite fast and still had remaining time for a bite.
today i was hyper. maybe because i knew i would be FREE for the weekends. no need face her and whatsoever. reached chung cheng high main... the school was big. maybe twice the size of haising catholic school. but it was quite old and plain to me. at first i eventually thought that it was a temple. hahas! no joke. it looks really like a temple.
then i sold the badges i have done at our stall. and bought some stuffs from other schools too.
my daddy bought the badge cases from mini toons for me yesterday. i was delighted. i used madeline's machine and did some badges for val, cher, leon, khai, rachel... and for my bro, mummy, and daddy of course. not very nice actually. hahas.
bought a stress ball from our stall. i designed it myself. it was a shock to see that the stress ball was eventually a 'hot' selling item compared to the badges and decorative bottles. it sold out fast. lolls. lucky i prepared one for myself. hahas.
nothing really happened today. just a little mad, and that's all. i sang 'jia gei wo' by adriano on my trip to and back from chung cheng high in bus. and i realised that my vocals are getting better and better. hahas. bhb larhhs. paiseh arhs. i sang this song to qinghui, hui hui, and alicia. hahas. hope that they like this song... and most importantly, my singing.
ri chu ri luo
hei ye bai zhou
shi shi ke ke yong zai huai zhong
qing qing chu chu zhe gan dong
fen miao ke yi cheng yong jiu
wo wang zhe ni
ni kan zhe wo
you ju hua wo xiang dui ni shuo
jing shen jing shi gen zhe wo
zuo ni xin fu de li you
jia gei wo
Friday, April 14, 2006
my english sucks. so from now on, i must not write anymore singlish in this blog. practice makes perfect!okays. just now i was caught in the heavy rain. it was scary. to get home, i walked in the rain. i did not want to run, as it would be ugly. so i walked... it would be more graceful this way. hahass. and i met nuts at the bus stop! she was going to bugis with her parents. good to see her. i felt so relaxed. and we chatted awhile. she had changed her phone! arhhs. that reminded me of my sony erricsson S70i. which had dropped into our school's toilet bowl. and now i used back my previous, old phone. nokia 6230. when will i ever get to change my phone?!
went out with clara to catch a movie. not a very exciting one. but overall, it was not bad. because there were many sex scenes. lolls. get real! it is a PG show...there should be many censored parts. i dozed off a while in the middle of the show. i was just tired. so i simply just wanted to rest my exhausted eyes. clara thought i did not like the show. and she kept apologizing to me. girl... it was not your fault. i was just tired. that's all...
before i came blogging, i went to valerie chua's blog. her latest entry almost made me cry. i was so touched then. she had voiced out what that had been kept inside my heart for approximately 4 months and 14 days. from what i have known... she was not like this last year... maybe i was not that close to her last year. and that was why i feel irritated with her now. in the morning, i will walk slowly to where clara, me, and her will meet. i will check if she is there first. if she is there, i will wait for clara to arrive then i will go meet them. haiis. everyday living in horror. i do not know when it will actually end. i hope the sooner the better. because i will explode. it is just the matter of time.
back to val's blog. she apologised to me for... you know what. it was not your fault val. i started the whole thing first. i should be at fault. and you are not a hypocrite. neither am i. (that's what i think) so stop blaming yourself. relax.
gort a cute video to share!!! hahas. kairu emailed me derhs. so dam bloody funny siias. all chinese mus watch!!! -to khai- don say i racist okayys... e video itself is in chinese horhhs.... lolls. but u can watch e cartoon larhs. veri cute oso.
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Thursday, April 13, 2006
heex. todae gort e NE thing. one word. 'sian.' hahas. e martial arts... alamak. dono wad siias. no standard. hahas. aiyarh. jkjk larhs. jus tt i dono how to appreciate. den got e making of ketupat... haiis. dey teach so slow siias. den i made hearts instead. copy from samuel derhs. lolls.after e NE thing, i stayed bck for speech day rehearsal lorhs. a quick one larhhs. den later went to help packin up e things in field. wth. for nth kana scolded by miss soh. ggrr. coss npcc and guides doing outdoor cookin marhs. den gort 3 holes.den dey wad nvr take out e charcoal, immediately fill e hole with soil... i oso jus reach e place onlii lorhs. miss soh see liao kip starin at me and scold me lorhs. make me so malu infront of everione. gggrr. i jus reach onli. how i noe wad dey do. den she reprimanded me like im da only one at fault. haiis.
den while packin up... i dirtied my shoes. arhhhhhhs. yuck man.
oh yarhs. and i mus reali thank elsen. hahas. coss tt tym i was reali dyin from hunger... den elsen came... say wad we so poor thing. hahas. den he gave me and huihui each a packet of chocolate wafer thing. arhhs. he is my saviour. i reali so hungry tt tym lorhs.
she reali gettin more and more irritating liiaos. so naggy like ah ma. i say one time for her. she will kip askin again and again e same old questions. i fed up den i shouted at her: "ya larhs! obvious rite. you dam bloody noisy. kip quiet can..." den you noe wad she replied? "huh. no larh. i just wan to confirm with you." wth siias.my eardrums gettin swollen everiday. everi mornin i see her. whoass. my mood swing cum liiaos. at first i dam hyper derhs. den when i see her... i became miserable. is automatic one. i don wan see her larhs. tts why i like history. coss i can be wif clara and summre no nid see her face. gggrrr....
but to say e truth larhs, everitime i do sumthin bad towards her, i feel guilty lorhs. but i think again lerhhs. she reali agitate me lorhs. nort tt i love pickin on her...
dis comin sat is east division day at chung cheng high main. tired siias. we openin a stall derr. sellin balloons, badges blah blah blah. and for e badges... i gort home e makin machine. is mad's derhs. den i bring home finish everithin. tml if gort walk pass mini toons den go buy e 'kiap kiap'. so can do for myself. and if can, i doing one for leon wu, one for rachel, one for clara, one for cher eng, one for valerie chua, and one for my dearest dii dii.
back to dis sat... afta e east division thing... i think guides' speech day contigent nid to stay bck for drill trainings. nex fri is speech day liiaos. sian arh sian arh. no nid study liiao lorh. my sets stil stuck siias. whre gort tym to study. kaos.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
back from fitness test... my incline pull up... omg. damm bad siias. 5 onlii. and i gort a E for it. stupid siias. cannot get GOLD for 3 consecutive years liiaos. haiis. i verii worried lorhs. when i saw miss seah at e hall afta everithin. i told her bout it. she said she see first, and she mite be lettin me haf a retake. i mus buck up siias.den my broad jump... 183 i think. cool rite. furthest in my history. lolls. den sit and reach was 49 i guess. lauce told me derhs. and wad arhhs... sit up is 40. million thnx to rachel huu helped me out. den shuttle run... 11.2 if i nort wrong...
now left wif 2.4. i wanna get gold!!!
gort back my maths log test. i passed! yerhhs. lolls. but pass by one marks onlii siias. e first quetion, which was e 5-marks question, i gort 0. hahas. i dono how to do marhhs... den question 4 ii... arhs!!! careless mistake! i wrote four to the power of four = sixty four. wth.some kind of mistakes... if i get tt rite... i got 14 over 20 liiaos. lost to her. gggrrr. never mind. huummmph. i will try harder nex tym. i mus win!!!
mid yr reali comin liiaos. i nid more study. 24 hours a day seems to be too short siias. haiis. oh yarhs. and tml gort ss test on sri lanka. kammbatehh.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
i verii tired. dis few days i get tired easily. i wanna sleep. but about 3 more weeks and its gonna be mid year exams. omg omg omg. wth siias. so dam bloody fastt. mid year. ggrr. i must buck up liiaos! i donn wanna fail anymore subjects. and i wanna win HER! ggrr. everytime lose to her i verii nort shuang. dis time i must not let myself down anymore! i will defeat HER!last nite reali tired siias. so late reach home. force myself to study til 12. logarithms... den like study nort enuff. so set alarm at bout 4.30. but stil cant wake up. hahas. drag til 5.15 den wake up. kip yawning and sneezin lorhhs. the a maths test was okok larhs. e first question was a difficult one. i dono how to do siias. 5 marks summre. im destined to be a goner liiaos. haiis. but other questions are okay... hope to get at least a passing mark dis tym. everytym fail... total for mid year sure die one.
pls let me pass. pls let me pass. pls let me pass. pls let me pass.
dis wik veri bz siias. yesterdae got guides' speech day rehearsal. todae gort full contigent speech day rehearsal. tml gort NAPFA. thurs gort stupid NE. all stay out til so late. grr. sian larhhs. i wan study a maths siias. i reali havin troubles wiif sets lorhhs. veri stressed larhs.
lucky friday is good friday. public holiday. no school. yerhh!!! clara wanna watch a movie called dono wad 'tristan and isolde' derhhs. a war show. so early in da mornin we go watch. shd be at tampines watch. denn afta that eat lunch maybe. denn rush home study. donn wanna waste time liiaos.
tml stil gort history test! omg. first thing in da mornin. tml wake up earlier and study larhhs. i reali nid some slp. i feel tt im goin to get sick again liiaos. wth. and im going to miss alort of fun again. don wan larhhs.... arhhhs.....
Monday, April 10, 2006
haiyarhs. now den reach home siias. siian. gort tuition jus now afta guides speech day trainin. den rush home to eat dinner. nvr change den rush to tuition centre. tired siias. tml logarithm test... and social studies test. worried siias. jus drank a cup of coffee. im prepared to study til midnite liiaos.and now mr ang teaching sets. stupid siias. i cant get wad mr ang is sayin lorhhs. i reali and seriousli don understand a single thing. wad union wad intersect. all so alien to me. i headache again.
some one pls help me out lerhhs. pls. i reali dying liiaos.
Friday, April 07, 2006
home sweet home. biang. jus now microsoft internet explorer got error. nid close all windows. noe nid retype my post again. grr. nvm.home sweet home. back from e stupid 3 day 2 nite camp at changi coast. nort reali as fun as ive expected. but still... okok larhs. everithin was alrite. except for e 2nd nite... all da girls washed e girls' toilet. omg. disgusting. bloody pads... bloody toilet papers... and even mny strands of hair. like hell siias. gross. i reali veri pei4 fu2 valerie khoo. can see tt she veri tired frm all da activities liiao. but she stil took da initiative to pick up those bloody 'things' on e floor. see her do, i oso feel like doing liiaos. so i oso dirtied my precious hands lorhs. lolls. if nort i will b like dose hundred girls huu squeezed in e toilet but didnt even do anithin to help. jus stand der and complain 'eeyer... why so bloody...' and 'wa lau erh. why so smelly... go away larh!'
e rock climbin rocks! lolls. actuali i don plan to go for it derhs. but afta seein yap, aline, val khoo, rachel dey all go up, i found out e trick to reach e top. it was scary to noe tt one of da thingy up der can move... later, yap persuaded me to go up and give it a try. of cos i refused. den val khoo oso called me go. hahas. den i go lorhs. actuali i thot next activity comin up. so i jus put on e harnest onli. but didnt reali plan to go up. den afta tt i found out i reali haf to climb up. so i went for it. i was scared lorhs. cos last tym i attended girl guides rock climbing one full day course. it was horrible. i climb half way i pantin liiaos. so dis tym round... i thot i wd b dead. i don wann embarrass myself marhhs...
i went for it. i did da 'trick'. i did it. lolls. nort long afta, i reached da top. i nort pantin at all. lolls. its nort as tired as i initiali thot. im so glad i tried. it was definiteli fun.
oh yarhs. and dis mornin, afta pickin up all e litters at e kayaking area and canteen, sheryl, luiting, aaron, samuel, yinghui etc. found 3 bugs... biiang. i felt so sad lorhs. dey are torturin dem jus for their entertainment. saddists. i sat at a side wif cher. i see dem pourin water into e plate which trapped e poor insects... omg... i dono wad to say...
oh yarhs. and another thing i wanna bring out. on da 2nd nite afta campfire. miss chua called me out frm da grp. she said i from girl guides. so shd noe alot of things. lolls. i so paiseh siias. she actuali wanted me to help her out in cuttin e pizzas into smaller slices. went wif her. den she told me her thoughts... she said she veri sad lorhs. say wad she regretted agreeing to order pizzas for us. say wad it is veri unfair to e others. everione w b unhappy blah blah blah.i listen liao i shock dio. i dono wad to reply. i jus said: 'wont one la...' but she veri sad de reply: "aiyarh. dis kind of thing arh... you all dono one." sad rite. miss chua did so much for us lorhs. i was so touched. so 3e4! we must treat her better okayss...?
afta dismissal, me, rachel, val went cavana eat eat. den went home to bathe. den went to leon's house. nicholas, val, me, kwang hong, ceputra will b der. at 1st when i heard tt ceputra and kwang hong were going, i got scared lorhs. coss i dono dem at all. scared latr nth to say or sumthin larhs. but it turned out well larhs. dey verii funny. den i found out tt ceputra and my guides' mate sihui got sumthin fishy siias... **ahem**
we played playstation, computer... den talk talk talk. and e stupid street fighter game larhhs. now both my thumbs gt blisters siias. pain arhs. i let leon see, he luff til dono like wad. hahas.
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
woohoos! reali speedy recovery lolls. i going camp! went to da doc jus now... gort mc for 2 days. den she asked me whether i stil wan go camp or nort. and i said nort sure. can see tt my mummy don nwan me go derhs. she worried bout me. and daddy go overseas work liiaos...haiis. den i thot for quite some time b4 reali deciding to go... stil sick larhhs. but huu cares larhhs. lolls.
den my bro tml den go camp. at zoo summre. hahas! den my mummy alone at home liiaos. how arhhs...
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
arhh! save me arhs. i sick liao siias. so dam bloody sick. nose like tap like tt. water kip flowin out. feel so uncomfortable. wanna die like tt. den coss of dis stupid flu, i nort goin to e camp tml lerhhs! grrr. i wanna go lorhs... i wanna play. i wanna enjoy... but... wth larh. my flu.todae verii sick lohhs. but still attended girl guides. didnt go for speech day rehearsal and master parade... but jus e cleanin up of e guides room made me even more sick liiaos. e dust... e broom... e everythin. made my nose so itchy. but nvm larhhs. i oso wanna duu sumthin.
oh yarhhs. and i am now e PL of kingfisher. i nort sad larhh. jus a lil disappointed. i cannot say i am 100% enthu to guides larhhs. but i mus reali say, i tried to do my best in guides liiaos. and being a PL is gd enuff for me. qinghui, aline, alicia, cerlyn oso became PLs... den CL is mad... ACL jess... SPL yisiew... expected liiaos. lolls. at least i don feel tt pressurised animore. oh yarhs. and to mad if u tend to see dis blog... 'u IC of sec threes siias. all da best!'
and my patrol de PS... zhi lin!!! hahas! dis crappy and noisy and funny and keipo and busy body and chicky person became my assistant. believe it anort lorhs! lolls. hahas. aiyarhs. jia you arhhs zhi lin!!! u gort potential arhs... nex yr gort high chance to be like CL neo (madeline) like tt. hahas! jiia you my assistant!
tml go see doctor liiaos. hope tml last min suddenli ok. lolls! den can go camp... if nort i pay for nth siias! stupiid.
Sunday, April 02, 2006
my new blog! lolls. done it while watchin campus superstar finals. haiis. at first i support renfred derhs... i so touched for his hardwork lorhs. he did his best lerhhs. but zhiyang oso nort bad larhhs. zhiyang won!!! woohoos! lolls. so fun siias. campus superstar. hahas.
feel free to tag horhs! lolls. welcome my new blog yerhhs? lolls.
Saturday, April 01, 2006
finalii here to blog liiaos. haiyarhs. verii siann arhs. dis few days veri lethargic. no energy to study. no energy to play. den dis week still gort tests... diie liiaos larhs. i wan to sleep...
jus woke up larhhs. jus in time for campus superstar encore on ch u. pheww...
oh yarhs. last nite jus completed my 3rd design. wasted so long to finish it siias!!! lolls.
