new blogkin! though its a little not that orangy as before. but i love this one too! LOLLIPOP! hahha.

up til now, i had already taken three papers. english paper one and two, and history. not too bad. but i didnt have enough time to complete them perfectly. but its alright. i have done my best!

went out with sheena, biru and kangqi yesterday! whee~

and! wa kao! read the newspaper a few days ago. and im EXTREMELY offended by this article. hurrhh~! "idiot" sun de rong bad-mouth fahrenheit still dare bad-mouth BANG BANG TANG. never die before sia... see his kiam-pa face... ggrr~

as usual. am waiting for my turn to bathe. hahahha. so i decided to drop a few words in my blog...

"ni na na..." really NI NA NA...

mid year exams next week. am i prepared? NO. what am i going to do? im totally not pressurized. and i do not know why. clara has been studying real hard. oh dear! and why am i like that? whats the use of attending adam khoo's workshop when i dont even feel the urge of studying? i only know how to cry, cry, cry... really damn NI NA NA.

i hate exams lahh~ but i will try do my best.

and one last thing, i love STITCH! and i want this 3-D puzzle of STITCH that can be bought in tampines mall! i gonna save money for it~!

its absurd.

can a friendship really be that hard to maintain?

can a temper be that hard to control?

can it be that hard to love one another?

is it me, or is it you, making this thing called FRIENDSHIP complicated and uncontrollable?

is it me, or is it you, making everyone feel so down, guilty, and even depressed?

GRRRRAH!

NI NI NA NA!

i hate that feeling.

can THAT MIRACLE happen on me again? i need a MIRACLE to cheer me up.

three days[9 - 11 april] of adam khoo's workshop. well~ yehh, im motivated. i have the motivation to study hard now. AND I BELIEVE I CAN GET ALL A1s FOR MY Os.

the three days, almost 13 hours spent every single day listening to candice, danny[all girls are crazy over him, but luckily not me] and the greatest adam khoo in the MPR. its tiring. although i feel like dozing off at times, but i know everything that they say is important. so i persevered. another reason is that i paid for it! haha. although it was greatly subsidised by my school.

the second and third day... they were the most memorable. i found out how important daddy and mummy are to me. i tell you. whatever they say totally touch your heart, and make you reflect on the bad and disrespectful things you have done to your parents. my eyes were totally cleansed by my tears on both days. the motivators really make you cry like mad. make you feel guilty. and then, SERIOUSLY, you will run home, hug your daddy and mummy tightly in your arms, and say SORRY + I LOVE YOU. (thats what i did) thats the thing that makes adam khoo so successful i think. he has the ability to touch your heart, and make you realise whats wrong, and whats right... and then you will work hard towards your goal, and be successful in life.

first day was just talking... nothing much. just the planning of our future and stuffs. and what goals and strategy to succeed...

then on the second day, adam khoo started by asking us to write down what we think of ourselves. plenty of us wrote RETARD, LAZY, STUPID. later he gave us a scenario. he showed his marker up high, pretending that it was a man, and said that 20million people were sacrificed for this one man. and this man didnt live his life to his fullest. then adam went around asking us what will we say to this particular man. many scolded the marker crude words... after that, adam khoo flared. i was shocked. he drew a woman's womb and started a biology lesson...

20million sperms racing to reach the egg. as you know, only one will succeed. and to the fact that EVERYONE IN THE ROOM, ANYONE WHO IS BREATHING ACTUALLY SUCCEEDED. ME! i have succeeded getting to the egg. i have surpassed 20million other sperms. i have persevered to the egg. i tried and tried. and i succeeded. I AM THE CHAMPION! i have the perseverence and determination. when i got to the egg, the other 19.9999999million sperms died.

see the scenario?! 19.9999999million sperms, which also proved to be 19.9999999million lives which are struggling to get into this world were sacrificed, because of me. and now, im not living my life to the fullest. worse still, i think im a RETARD, a LOSER. aint i the pot calling the kettle black? should i scold myself crude words too?!

this was the part i remember clearly. and also the part whereby he said if our siblings sacrificed their lives for us. then he showed a man with a pool of blood beside him, lying on a ground after being hit my some kind of vehicle. thats the moment whereby i know that i cant live without my younger brother. he may be irritating... but i love him...

oh yerrh. and one thing thats funny. on the second night, when mummy returned home. i went up to her and tried hugging her and said "I LOVE YOU MUMMY." and... guess what she replied...

she shunned and said in a jokingly manner: "what do you want to buy this time?" hahahha. i was already controlling my tears, but when she said that, my tears escaped. HAHA. i dont blame her... i WAS like that. haha. but not anymore! you should have seen her reaction and the way she see me cry. she was shocked man. LOL.

the third day... more crying. parents turned up for the closing ceremony. students went up the stage to thank their parents. many broke down. minority laughed, and i think thats absurd. everything was so touching. too bad my daddy and mummy couldnt turn up. if not i would also be the one standing on stage, with the mike, breaking down like the others and thanking my parents for everything they gave me.

besides realising how important family is... i also found out that friends are important too. i will treasure everyone around me...

I LOVE MY DADDY, AND MUMMY, AND DI DI.




p.s. some miracle from maybe the outer space happened on 11 april, around 9.30pm, on the road... ...

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