prelims starts next friday. and very soon, it will be Alevels. gosh, time really flies.
and im scared. somebody give me strength will you?

cant wait for my holidays after Alevels. holidays that will last me for 8months with nothing to do. i cant wait, seriously. i cant wait to do nothing and start forcing myself to find something to do.

i wanna go to SPCA as a volunteer. i wanna go to bangkok for shopping. i wanna go to korea for you-know-what. i wanna finish watching B2ST ALMIGHTY. i wanna watch all the music shows with SHINee performing LUCIFER which i have missed out. i wanna clear my shelves. i...... pfffffftt.

i seriously shouldnt have gone into a jc in the first place.
would my life be better if i have entered ngee ann poly's early childhood education 2 and a half years ago?

was blurting everything out to my mummy a few nights ago. about my worries and stuffs 'cos i have been keeping them away from my parents for quite some time already. it was unusual, to keep my feelings away from them for so long i mean. ever since primary school, i make my feelings clear to my parents. even up til Olevels. but for this year, i guess i wanna carry the burden alone. i dont know. but i guess im still not as strong as i thought afterall...

my parents are the best. i dont want to disappoint them i swear. and i have worked hard. but everything is turning negative at this point of time. nothing is helping and im kinda immuned to Ugrades. i hate that feeling and i dont want a single U on my cert.

i hate getting back papers;
i hate the negative comments on my papers;
i hate people assuring me that i can make it when they dont even know what im going through;
i hate it when people calls me stubborn when im trying my best to change things;
i just hate it when everything is turning its back against me.
and these are not all, 我还有很多心里话....

i dont hate my life. but i just hate the fear in me on my everyday-is-so-gloomy days.
i'm so tired. i bet everyone is. jiayou.

it's 4:42am. good morning world! ;)
was watching some random LILO & STITCH videos for the past 1hour, and oh man, im back to the good old me. STITCH is super cute please!

have been listening to songs other than korean pop recently. it was hard, considering the fact that i only have korean songs in my phone. haha, so i started off with the radio. and guess what i realise... i hate the new songs. i was actually looking forward to older songs and when the radio plays them, i feel all over the moon.
and now im downloading back some of my ex-favourites.
like... F4's Can't Help Falling In Love; 可米小子's 求爱复刻版; Energy's More Than Words/某年某月某一天/多爱我一天; KONE's 背影/如果沒有明天; 丸子's 爱你卡农; 范逸臣's Love Story/I Believe; Westlife's Uptown Girl; blahhhhhhhhhh.

okay yeah, these songs are considered super old. i listen to them when im in primary school! oh my tian. time flies. but guess what, i can still remember the lyrics! these songs 让我勾起了许多回忆. and im loving this feeling. ♥

spent National Day 2010 with pekchoo, yumin, liwhey, and my prawny (shwufang)!
it was awesome. since we were at Marina Bay Sands and watching fireworks 'explode' right infront of us live. thank you pekchoo and her family for the invitation! ;)

falling off the chair pretty soon.
goodnight/good morning world.

i cant believe i havent blogged for a week. im too lazy to on my computer anyway, much less msn. im kinda hating msn now. i dont know why. haha.

gonna celebrate national day with pekchoo, liwhey, yumin, and my PINK PRAWN this monday! i can imagine myself enjoying the 4minute fireworks in the hotel suite already. im too desperate for moments like this. rahh.

i swear im so outdated with kpop. i dont even know B2ST is coming to singapore again soon. school, thanks ah. *rolls eyes* and i didnt even watch SHINee's LUCIFER performances until today. have spammed myself with them for the past 3hours i think. kinda satsified. \(♥.♥)/



okies, shall be gone now.
who knows when i will be back here again blogging. LOL.
byesbyes.

tan leekeat.
ellekay.
elle_kay0114@hotmail.com

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