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smile, even if it's going to be a fake one.
because things will get better somehow.
because the sun still shines for you.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
^ iamyourleader-d385hu1

this is not going to be a happy post. but i hope i will feel happier after this.
im just feeling super emotional right now. i swear i was fine just 10minutes ago. when suddenly my heart just sink and there goes little miss sunshine.

everything is making me worried & scared. be it my work, or my university acceptance. took leave for tomorrow already, but i have decided to go back to work to make myself feel better. i have to do something to make myself feel better, cos i'm really feeling down right now. so down that i may die. (hate this feeling) i have to go back to make myself happy, at least have things solved.

will be tendering on friday. then i can finally leave for good. hope everything goes well.

the only person consoling me now is xinyi... not that i have announced to the world about how im feeling right now, but she found out. her assurance didnt make me feel any better, but im just glad to have someone to talk to.

stupid, im so damn scared right now, i dont know for what. stupid. or maybe i know what im scared of. currently im scared of everything.
i think i did better go to bed right now before i hallucinate or imagine the sky crumbling down.

ps/ next post will be a happy post. i just know it.