smile, even if it's going to be a fake one.
because things will get better somehow.
because the sun still shines for you.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
^ let me disclose the wall of my study table and my doughnut!my post-its with my thoughts and encouragement to myself.
i think it's gonna get filled up before Alevels.
^ i love this picture.'cos i looked happy.
and yes indeed, i was really happy.
i seriously shouldnt have gone into a jc in the first place.
would my life be better if i have entered ngee ann poly's early childhood education 2 and a half years ago?
was blurting everything out to my mummy a few nights ago. about my worries and stuffs 'cos i have been keeping them away from my parents for quite some time already. it was unusual, to keep my feelings away from them for so long i mean. ever since primary school, i make my feelings clear to my parents. even up til Olevels. but for this year, i guess i wanna carry the burden alone. i dont know. but i guess im still not as strong as i thought afterall...
my parents are the best. i dont want to disappoint them i swear. and i have worked hard. but everything is turning negative at this point of time. nothing is helping and im kinda immuned to Ugrades. i hate that feeling and i dont want a single U on my cert.
i hate getting back papers;
i hate the negative comments on my papers;
i hate people assuring me that i can make it when they dont even know what im going through;
i hate it when people calls me stubborn when im trying my best to change things;
i just hate it when everything is turning its back against me.
and these are not all, 我还有很多心里话....
i dont hate my life. but i just hate the fear in me on my everyday-is-so-gloomy days.
i'm so tired. i bet everyone is. jiayou.
如果海會說話 如果風愛上砂
如果 有些想念遺忘在漫長的長假
我會聆聽浪花 讓風吹過頭髮
任記憶裡的愛情在時間潮汐裡喧嘩
非得等春天遠了夏天才近了
我是在回首時終於懂得（也許天氣永遠會那麼熱）
當陽光再次回到那 飄著雨的國境之南
我會試著把那一年的故事 再接下去說完
當陽光再次離開那 太晴朗的國境之南
妳會不會把妳曾帶走的愛 在告別前用微笑全歸還
海很藍 星光燦爛 我仍空著我的臂彎
天很寬 在我獨自唱歌的夜晚
請原諒我的愛 訴說的太緩慢
如果 有些想念遺忘在漫長的長假
我會聆聽浪花 讓風吹過頭髮
任記憶裡的愛情在時間潮汐裡喧嘩
非得等春天遠了夏天才近了
我是在回首時終於懂得（也許天氣永遠會那麼熱）
當陽光再次回到那 飄著雨的國境之南
我會試著把那一年的故事 再接下去說完
當陽光再次離開那 太晴朗的國境之南
妳會不會把妳曾帶走的愛 在告別前用微笑全歸還
海很藍 星光燦爛 我仍空著我的臂彎
天很寬 在我獨自唱歌的夜晚
請原諒我的愛 訴說的太緩慢
范逸臣 's 國境之南
my life's motto:
smile, even if it is going to be a fake one.
because things will get better somehow.
:)
because things will get better somehow.
:)
