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smile, even if it's going to be a fake one.
because things will get better somehow.
because the sun still shines for you.
Friday, July 25, 2008
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please, never ever let me fall, again.

my daddy went to school to see mr chee just now. my daddy, marjy, andy, and me went for dinner together before that. the silence was kind of awkward... ha~

im speechless now. i seriously wonder how i manage to survive till J1. i failed so badly for my midyears. i prepared so hard for my chemistry, and i know in my heart that i couldnt let kathy mam down. so i did study hard for it. the day before chem paper, i was so damn bloody toot nervous. i made sure i know the stuffs. and yah, everything got into my tiny brain. the next morning, talked to kathy mam on the phone on my journey to school. i swore to myself that i would score well for at least this H1 subject. BUT WHAT THE F*CK. i still got an E in the end. andand, i had so much careless mistakes. AND... i left 4 mcq questions blank on my OAS. sorry for my swearings, but F*CK! i felt so devastated, and lost. hard work doesnt seem to pay off any ways. it seems like a curse, or maybe its a retribution for my bad deeds or something...

i did study... what do you adults know?! keep saying i didnt study hard enough. how hard do you want?! im feeling so... pressurised, and at times, i feel like giving up. what the hell did i enter a JC for? to demoralise myself like that? i was so pleased with all the improvements i have made for my Olevels! for goodness' sake. but JC is crushing down on me, making me suffocate like no one's business.

*swearings.......*

i dont want to retain.

8.9 percentile for math? DAMN IT...

i dont want to fall this hard again...
take my life if you have to make this happen once more.