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smile, even if it's going to be a fake one.
because things will get better somehow.
because the sun still shines for you.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
may i ask, what will you do if someone whom you cared and loved and adored most said stuffs that hurt you seriously badly? to make things worse, he may not even know that he is in fact hurting you like shit. do you blame him, or do you blame yourself?

my heart was squashed at that moment, and i wished i could die.

what happened was that my dearest brother said something that demoralised me like fuck. yes i may not be in science stream and may not be as clever as him. but he shouldnt have said stuffs that made me wanna die. apparently we were talking about how light bulb works 'cos a light bulb fell off his hands earlier on and i was clearing up the mess. i have to admit that i dont know what is in a light bulb and how it works, except for the fact that there's current and electricity etc. when my brother said that there might be some poisonous chemical, i merely asked if it really is true and he retorted "又不见得你有读 bio 还是 h2 chem", "你连 physics 都没有", and made it sounded like i am nothing but dumb, 什么都不懂.what the fuck have i done wrong tell me. he is my precious little brother! and it's these little things in life that hurt me the most. so am i really dumb or what... ...
^ a fanpic of yoseob. ♥
http://evon.bestiz.net/zboard/view.php?id=yj&page=2&sn1=&divpage=42&sn=off&ss=on&sc=off&select_arrange=headnum&desc=asc&no=283503

shall read history notes now to get rid of my misery.
so, this is life.