so today was the crucial judgement day everyone's "looking forward to". once again, im going through this and i must say:"good job leekeat!☼" looking at my 2008's promo results, i think i have leaped quite far, but sadly, it took me 2years instead of 1 to take me there. but in any case, im glad that my hard work and tears paid off.

allow me to start telling stories kay, 'cos im feeling nostalgic.

remembering last year's judgement day... it was the day i cried the most. the depressing results slip, the long talk with Mr Chee til evening, the opening of the door and seeing almost the whole class waiting outside, the sad yet filled with laughter dinner at yoshinoya. they all made me cry so hard. and i swore i didnt want to have that feeling ever again.

going back home that night was hard too. i couldnt help but cry on the bus, and i think shuhui 'smelt' the presence of my tears. i remembered clearly that i wanna grab someone to hug so much. shuhui was sitting on my right, but i darent hug her 'cos i might crush her instead, and i didnt really want her to see my cry...

of course, not forgetting how difficult it was to step into my house. i loitered at the corridor that night, so that i could finish up my tears, and calm myself down. since after i step through that door, the people i face would be the ones who went through so much hardship to provide me with a decent education...

anyway, back to today, 0934 has climbed all the way to the 9th position of the entire J1 cohort! :)

talked a little while with andy, and after knowing his rank points, i felt 莫名 de 欣慰. like finally, we have improved after last year... its great to hear how your friend has done well no? :)

guess what, after much moderation (a scary one i reckon), i passed my econs with an E! i was very surprised. but no, i dont like it. its not what i ought to have. should be registering for some econs tuition soon.

hey my friend. i will miss you. i dont know, but i guess you should be feeling the same way i was last year?
you might not know this, since we werent really close, but you are really a great friend to me.
you are also a great fan of kpop and this hit us off really well, and i have learnt alot from you.
whats more, you have also been a great companion to me during Chem lectures. i have not confided in you with regards to why i hate/dread Chem so much, or you might not even realise it, but i was really grateful to have you around. you made me feel that Chem could be enjoyable sometimes, and not that much miserable. and now that i have lost you, Chem goes back to its usual self. the thought of it makes me wanna cry.

PS. once again my friend, you might not know this, but you have actually played a pretty big role in my life of 2009.
stay strong kay...?

tan leekeat.
ellekay.
elle_kay0114@hotmail.com

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